Time Paranoia

The concept of waiting bewilders me.
There are always deadlines.
There are always ticking clocks.
That is why she ask me to manage my time effectively.
Damn!
She infected me with her time paranoia.
We are all living in each other's paranoia.
I definitely can't argue that.
All in all that is why everyone tries to avoid each other.
That is why I have lacked focus.
My focus is just always to think over and look out of time.
I can't focus on what I am doing.


All of a sudden everything is out of order in time to.
The cut and dried, useful things that I struggle is about to run away in vain.
The things I am afraid to happen became reality gradually
It doesn't stand to reason at all.
I feel like a lost cause.
I am ill at ease.
The only thing I look up to is to put up with it, figure it out, or get away from it.